Okay.
Since this blog was mainly started to help me stop talking to myself (yes, I answer myself too!), and to get my thoughts down and out of my head (cuz I ponder everything for days I swear!) I am going to just ramble away for a while concering this issue I have been pondering ever since hurrican Ike hit Texas.
I have been pondering emailing an old boyfriend that lives in Houston. We did not part on very good terms, in fact, he prob still hates me. Mostly cuz I finaly opened my mouth and starting talking to him, telling him things about myself and my life. He did not want to hear those things, he was happier in the dark. It was long distance relationship that lasted 4 year; He was in Houston, I live in SLC Utah. He works for an airline, so flew here at least once a month.
Anyways . . . Ever since Ike hit, I have been worried about him. I know, its not my place anymore, but I am CoDependant and this is really fighting me. One thing I know about myself is that I need to Let Go. A very big Codependant trait is NOT letting go. I feel that I should make sure he is okay, let him know I am here for support (verbally only) and just let him know that I am thinking about him.
I know that I should NOT email him, because really, WHY in the world should I ? ? ? There is no reason that I should email him. We are done; over now for almost 1.5 years. I know there is no way we will get back together, as I could not handle it as he smokes, and I cannot get involved with someone that lied to me about smoking on our first date (but I found out 4 years later) ! !
So. Do I be considerate, nice, and offer my sympathy to him about the hurricane ? Or do I just leave it be and secretly hope that his apartment, mustang, job and life are okay…? eGads. I hate being Codependant, it makes life so dang difficult!