Dear Diary,
Today has been a very long day. I am tired - yeah, whats new on that one, eh? and sometimes I get depressed when I am tired, and today seems to be one of those days. Perhaps it was the downpour, or perhaps the messy house when I arrived home from work, or perhaps its just my old age creeping up on me - no matter, I need to get over it. Easier said than done.
Or perhaps I need a crash course on software development cuz I cant seem to get the laptop, or my typing fingers, in gear today. ugh.
I think mostly I need to sleep; a nice long nights sleep. Or, a nice rest in the garden to stop and smell the Flowers. *sigh*
Dear Diary,
I gained 2 pounds overnight. We had a work party yesterday for my Boss’s b-day and we all brought food, lots of food. I ate too much. Needless to say, today I am depressed. I still have a very hard time when it comes to my weight and how the day goes after I get off the scale; it the scale is favorable, I am happy and have a good day, if the scale is not favorable, I have a rotten day. Perhaps it has something to do with my sleeping habits as well. I still think I need a new bed, a sleep number bed, or a mushier bed, or heck if I know. I just know that my firm bed hurts my back and makes my day miserable as well. So if I can get past the eating problem I have, and move on to a good nights sleep, perhaps I will be happier again. ugh. It is SO hard to stay happy these days!
Dear Diary,
I seem to be at crossroads in my life. Yes, I know, another one, go figure. I am very happy the way things are right now, but some days I am doubting myself about if I am really happy or not. I think its cuz my B-Day is next week and I am going thru that ‘getting old’ question again of if life is passing me by and I am too stupid to know it.
So I have been thinking about getting back in the dating scene again. maybe. sorta. not really sure. It seems to be just too darn much work! I’d rather be at my home, having a nice relaxing evening. yeah-sounds boring, but still, to me, it sounds very nice too! Besides, I am still tying to get my kitchen cabinettes finished and perhaps some new Delta fauctes and I have a ton of little project to do . . . I know, sounds like I am just making excuse’s to stay home, well, maybe I am, heck if I know!
Dear Diary,
When will I learn!? Monday are always a killer. I just get to bed to darn late and now I am paying for it. But it sure is nice to sleep in on Saturdays and Sundays, heeheehee.
I did get a ton of stuff done this weekend. It was very windy Saturday, so I got the box cutter out and opened some old boxes so that I could fill them back up with tree branches and sticks that fell off the tree! I need to get my winter wood supply going. The twigs make for great starter wood.
Other than that, we did go see Transformers. Wow, what a rush! It was such a smash-em bash-em summer movie! I loved it! All in All a great weekend.
Dear Diary,
Since I only have an hour left here at work, I decided to surf around and read blogs. I have not done this in a while and it was nice to catch up on my friends blogs.
What stood out today, is just how different me and my son are from other families. and how different other people live compaired to me. It seems to be the season for BBQs, family get-togethers, friend and family campings and other stuff.
Well, the kiddo and I have never done stuff like that. Its always been just him and me, doing stuff mostly alone-just the two of us. I know why too; its from being scared to death of the X and what might happen if he found us. It is so foreign to read about others having friends over for a BBQ and getting out with a group of people, and mostly - having other adults play with the kids. I just trust No One. and I dont think I ever will.
Its always been just me and the kiddo. and its been tons of fun! I would not trade it for the world.
Dear Diary,
I really dont like Wednesdays. Never had, Never will. However, today is sunny and warm, so I guess its not too awfully terrible. Plus, I think I am just about done digging the dirt in the back yard and preparing it for flowers. My back is aching, but I dont think I will need any Blue Cross North Carolina benifits anytime soon. Today I plan on resting. Yeah Right, I dont even believe that one! I have so many errands to run and my kitchen cabinettes doors are still off and need to be re-stained, gosh I have too much stuff to do!!! I need some time off work, pooh.
Dear Diary,
Today my head is throbbing. It was a long weekend w/the kiddo. We seemed to dissagree w/everything every second of the day. He has informed me tho, that he has turned his brain off due to summer vacation. I consequently told him to turn it back on or no more TV, Laptop, Wii, GBA or DS! He was not a happy camper. I swear he is turning into a Zombie! So Frustrating.
We did have out yesterday, so I hope all will be fine when I pick him up from Summer School Gym today.
Dear Diary,
I just got out of a meeting with our Fitness CoOrdinator regarding my year long fitness plan. I basicly told her that I was not going to exercise anymore. She did NOT like that and told me that she would rather see me exercise rather than loss weight. But I think I know myself better than she does so she can just stick it someplace! I need to loose at least 5 lbs for DC/NYC in a month. No Prob; as long as I dont exercise! Besides, its not like I am running around after work every day, never resting, never sitting, never anything but running around! I get enough exercise thankyouverymuch.
