I am in a oh-so terrible mood today. Basicly, just sick and tired of it all. Tired of doing everything myself, tired of not eating normal ( I gained 7 lbs last week ! ) Tired of running around, tired of having to live up to the expectations of the “single mom” sydrome; of keeping it all together, being happy and self suffient! Well I am bearly hanging on, can bearly put food on the table and paying the heating bill will prob push me over the edge to a mental break down. Christmas this year is miserable. I cannot afford the games and hi-tech stuff my son wants. I already told him ‘Santa’ is not getting me, his mom, anything on Christmas Morn, cuz I just cant afford it ! He doesnt seem to mind, cuz Santa usually brings his mom dumb stuff, like much needed underwear anyways.

However, what really bugs me is when people (NOT family) say they will lend me the money and I can pay them back whenever. I dont like owing people money! I dont like being in debt, and I really wish money grew on trees like it seems to do for the rest of the world.

I really really need to get over this mood. and get on with life and stop complaining ! !